Been on a very retrospective tangent these past couple of years. My main focus: The mind. You could say its an obsessive disorder thing but I’m unscrupulously obsessed with the mind and its little intricacies. First of all, I divorced myself from all forms of obscene sexual content, stopped watching Californication, True Blood, Secret diary of a call girl (sigh) and even avoided Game of Thrones - for the mere fact of an experiment. This began last year June. I didn’t realize the ripple affect one change in what I allow or disallow from repeatedly entering my mind could have on my mental well being. Over explicit sex scenes I am referring to here, not mere kissing or whatever. Sometimes I forgoe a complete movie because of it or I just skip these scenes completely and sort of make out what I must’ve missed. It has helped me so much. I cant even say. Also, I stopped paying attention to trendy material and some trendy blogs. I don’t mind trends , but some of them are stupid and push agendas and points of views that debase our intelligence. Feel like its not “cool” to be intelligent anymore. The youth is getting… distracted from what is really going on around in the world. I completely shifted my attention from watching e.g. New Girl, to watching VICE, a documentary series that I personally think everyone our age should be watching. Stopped reading cosmo and started reading The Economist. Little things I substituted for more …. diverse content, has helped me see to start thinking and questioning. TED talks are also a good fave of mine. don’t get me wrong, I still love entertainment, silly shows are good for a laugh, but I started disciphering what it was that I didn’t mind influencing me and what it is that I would NOT want my own kids let’s say (had I had any) to indulge in. Started trying to be smart. Stopped being completely mindless. And I must say, I have come to realize that half the things I thought I liked, I only liked because they was “popular.” This then helped me flesh out the kind of person I really am. Or the kind of person I aim to be. —- this is just random banter here but I thought I must share it with whomever would take the time to read. :) cheerio xx
Thank you . for the mercy you have shown me, the mercy you have shown my family, the mercy you have shown my friends. Thank you for your invisible hand that has worked its way through my life. Thank you for loving me, creating me fearfully and majestically, thank you for anointing me, blessing me, favoring me, overlooking my mistakes and ignorance, my idiocracy, my mere childishness. You are truly the greatest source of goodness and kindness that the world DOES NOT KNOW of. I am aware. That even sometimes I forget how good you are. I lose touch. But when I access you, tap into you and allow you to intervene in my life, I am all of a sudden elevated, cherished, loved, bestowed upon divine joy - Your peace surpasses all understanding. And it is that peace that I bask and enjoy right now. I remember you again. You never forgot me clearly. God never forgets. he is faithful.. But I forgot how to speak to you for a while… I forgot the correct way to access you, to allow you to do what you want to do in my life - help. But now, I AM AWARE again , reminded, through your holy spirit, that the only way to true divinity and purgatory, to true happiness and elevation, to salvation, to a personal and deep fulfilling relationship with Yahweh is through the WORD OF GOD. It is your word that unlocks the secrets of this world, and of the other worlds. It is your word that breaths life into the death that the devil has expunged upon humanity. It is your word that sheds light upon the darkness that we all maneuver in. It is your word that acts as a navigator, helping us through the hurdles. It is your word that reassembles everything and puts things back in order. Back into the will of the Lord. Back into calmness and peace and joy and righteousness and the fear and glory of the lord.
yet again I am in awe.
In extreme sheer awe.
Thankyou for being so patient with me. Oh good God!
I love you .